I’m not sure how important my words are, but maybe someone will like to read about me?

Today begins my 6th week of pregnancy.  I’m 35 and this is my first pregnancy.  I’m cautiously excited at this point.  I worry everyday about miscarriage of course.  I don’t know how it is possible to be so scared and excited about something.  Right now, I am told that this child is the size of sesame seed, barely a blip on the radar.  How can something so small turn your life into such a rollercoaster?  All of the sudden I see a commercial for dogfood featuring dogs in a humane society and my eyes well up with tears!  Hello, it is just a commercial why are you starting to cry?  Or all of the sudden, I have this insane craving for cottage cheese or milk!!!  I have gone through 32 ozs. of cottage cheese in one week! 

Right now, I am on a surgical leave.  I decided to have surgery to remove an ovarian cyst (14 cm) on Feb 22nd.  I was to have the surgery the next day (the 23rd), and overnight, I got this strange idea in my head.  I could be pregnant, but nah, I’m probably not, but maybe?  So I went in the bathroom, it was about 2 a.m. and I used one of my cheap HCG strips I had ordered off the internet.  Within a minute, it had a slightly visable second line.  Hmmmm.  Do I dare waste a “real” test?  Why not?  So I pulled out a “First Response” test from the drawer.   (I had collect my specimen in a cup)  Within a minute the test had two visable lines!!!  Holy Cow!!  I ran into the bedroom flipped on the light, “DAVID!!!  It’s positive!  Look!!  Look!!!”  He opens his eyes squinting at me as I am hold the test in front of him.  “What the heck is that thing?”  “It’s a pregnancy test!”  “Really?  Let me see it!”  Then he says, “you’d better have them run one at the hospital, these things aren’t all that accurate.”  So here I am in an argument with my husband at 2 a.m. about the validity of this test.  Well, a few hours later at the hospital.  They took a blood test, it was also positive.  I knew the first one wasn’t an error, but it took the blood proof for David.  I don’t think the whole, “I’m going to be a dad”, thing has sunk in for him yet.  I hope he gets bitten by the bug eventually…