Frustrated!
So what do you do when you want to tell someone something but you are afraid of their answer? Should you just wait? You don’t have one iota of a clue what’s going on in their head. You want to know but at the same time you’re afraid of the answer. I guess the right answer is to wait. Wait until you feel you might have a better confirmation of what is truly going on. It sucks. I hate it. It also depends on how much is at stake I guess. How much do you care about their reaction. If they react badly you’ll wish you’d never said anything.
What if you don’t live another day? Hence, the need to believe in God and all the gifts he has already provided you with. Although, for some reason we are always wanting more? Is that a complication of society or just plain part of being human? We think we know what we want, so we just go after it. Stupid isn’t it? We think we know what is best for us, but do we really? I guess only time will tell you the ultimate truth. I mean if you just keep on living things good and bad things are going to happen to you everyday and for the most part you don’t have a lot of affect on those things. If your car dies, if you get hit by a bus, or you suffer some significant loss such as a loved one. You have no control over those things. So what do we ultimately control of? I can say that I am going to get up at 4 am tomorrow and go to the pool. When I wake up at 4 am, I decide that, “Nah, I’d rather sleep.” Sometimes I wake up with the zest of a cheerleader and I get right up and get going, although, lately I feel a little emotionally drained to do that. Now we’re back to, “Nah, I’d rather sleep.”
I guess I will continue to deal with the frustration because it’s just better than hearing something I don’t want to hear. Another stupid answer. Another stupid reason. Oh, Ye of little faith….hold onto your faith, for your faith will give you strength to face the unknown, your faith with lead you to the right answer, your faith is a true test of your integrity and perseverance. OH BUT THE FRUSTRATION!!!! Okay, so I guess in my own words I’ll hide the answer…..
I guess it’s time to get going.
God bless!
Stacie,
Write them a letter. It will get your worries off your mind and you do not have to see their reaction. If they have something to say about the letter, they’ll let you know. You never know, maybe they are thinking the same thing but are hesitant to say something too.